Journey

I have just completed a 21 Day Crazy Sexy Diet cleanse. www.crazysexylife.com I started this because I have heard so many people say it helped them with so many ailments. Things like body aches, joint pains, stomach problems, energy and fatigue. So seeing as I have many of those little, pesky things going on I thought I would give it a go.

During the 21 days you are Vegan and also Gluten free and you give up coffee and alcohol and sugar other than plant based ones (stevia and agave). You also drink gallons of green juice which is basically Kale, spinach, romaine lettuce, cucumbers, celery, ginger, broccoli stems, green apple or pear and despite the sound is tasty and something I was enjoying before the cleanse.

So that said, I am now at the floating and what to do now point. I am a little scared of food. I have come so far and reset so much of my food thinking and tastes but what now? Without the cleanse framework how do I make dinner and what do I put into my body? Especially, since I finally started to like what my body was doing. I liked how it was changing. This internal chat and dialogue is not made any way easier by friends. I would have to say overall that friends were the hardest part of this cleanse. I think it scares people when you are doing something like this. I think food and the sharing of food is a HUGE deal to us as people and our relationships and that when you change how you do that it effects others in a very big way. You are still the same and socially you are doing the same things but the shift which is just what you put in YOUR mouth really seems to make it awkward. People make the focus about your eating not about being together and chatting and laughing. People treat you very different when you choose to eat different. I found that it was very difficult for them to realize that I am making no judgment on their eating but was simply doing this for ME. My body needed change and wasn't getting it without a big jump start and an extreme change.

But then I had the cleanse to fall back on. It was a time frame thing. 21 days. NOW, already day two after the cleanse everyone thinks you just go back and add it all back in. They seem disappointed to think you might not. That you may never eat cheese again or you may never eat like them again. They really do not understand you might choose to keep going with all the "weird" foods and drinks. They do not support nor like that you CHOOSE this at all. It is very isolating. And it is really only just food!! It is not preaching. It is not shunning. It is not a grab for attention. It is about me making choices that are helping my body. Completely about seeking my natural balance and this is a work in progress. What is a natural balance? Will I ever really know? Can I take these next days post cleanse and find my balance? I worry.

It is difficult amidst all the nay saying chatter to hear what my body thinks is good and should be next. But that is the important lesson here listening to MY body. What works? What doesn't? What do I feel? My choices.