Tuesday, December 21, 2010

See her...

See this lovely lady...she is wise. (Even that is not a big enough word...) She gets things far beyond her years and really brings me back to what matters. I asked her why she was so excited for Christmas...reminder here she is 9...she doesn't list off all the presents or things you might expect...she says to me, "I am excited to go to Grandma and Grandpa's and see their faces on Christmas morning. I love everyone's face on Christmas day they all seem so happy." SHE IS NINE!!! And when she saw Santa this year she told him..."You are magic and I think you would know best what I should have." I am amazed by her and am grateful that she reminds me of what is important.

Today I had my girlfriends stop in for tea or coffee and we sat on the comfy couch and giggled and vented and just rested for a while and of course we ate!!! We all just needed the time to sit and it was good for my spirit. December has been a test for me and I have pretty much failed most of it or have yet to see my lessons I have been supposed to learn. But I am making it through and with a few more obligations and a 6 hr. drive in my future I will get time soon to sit and be a slug...I truly look forward to some time on the couch with some books or even some good ole chick flicks...but till then wishing everyone a very Peaceful Yule. A Merriest of Christmases and very safe travels and some sitting time!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Bah Humbug

Tis the season...I am trying to be excited. Trying to seize what is good and find some spirit deep down in my being. Alas, I am not finding it. I am exhausted... I know we all have that feeling from time to time especially as women and mothers but this is just beyond that. This is to my core fatigued. I would really like to spend this season this year in my jammies sitting on my couch eating popcorn and watching bad tv. But I am trying. I am putting on my happy face (not well I have no poker face) and plowing my way through the month that is December and the holiday that is Christmas. I am beyond sight of what the season should be and how I should feel. I am just really off... even the gifts I am making are getting done in bits not together for completion and delivery. I haven't even had anyone in for tea or coffee this season and it makes me sad. Working all the way up to our departure to Indy and adding a day of overtime to that mix are not helping me relax and make peace. And having a minor fender bender in the bad weather that was Sunday are all hanging heavy...so I am sorry December but I will be ok with your passing. New Year has always been my favorite I look forward to the possibility. And at some point I will breathe and relax and feel this unexplained weight lifted from me...and if I knew it what it was you better believe I would be working on it...till that discovery Happy Christmas to you all may you enjoy the comfort of family and friends this season!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

I was looking around at some blogs today and came across Thrifty Decor Chick...and she is having a share your Christmas tree link up and I so loved looking at all the trees on there I thought I would play along. I love our ecclectic tree. Every ornament reminds me of something special. We try and buy one on any trip we go on so there are many small little places that would have slipped from memory had there not been a little reminder to hang on the tree. Our tree is more scrapbook than decorator showplace but I love seeing those ornaments and sitting in the big purple chair to watch them all while I have a cup of coffee. I put my most favorite ornaments over by the chair so I can see them more!! http://thriftydecorchick.blogspot.com/