Thursday, July 30, 2009

Upside down yoga girl...


I am so behind in my postings so today you get two! One day in our kid's yoga class, Bronwyn and I were the only two students so our instructor pushed us a bit farther in our practice...and as you see my little yogini has really taken to the challenge. She asks me nearly every day to help her up into headstand. I on the other hand was unable to get up into the pose in a clumsy fit of giggles. I must say since Bronwyn and I began the yoga journey, she has been much better about incorporating her practice into her day to day life. I could really learn something and pick up some discipline from this 8 year old yoga girl! She is mindful and gets out her yoga cards I picked up for her in Portland and rolls out her mat and does her own sequence...she is a very wise lady and my hopes are that this gives her the outlet in the world for all the little annoyances and big ole worries. Because with being so wise comes worries that seem bigger than her 8 years. She internalizes a lot of the ick the world puts out there and finds a way to fret about it all. She has a big ole heart and worries about us all. So I hope that her yoga will give her perspective and some coping. A tool to help her survive herself. So that all the bad could happens in the world are replaced with the now and calm and the being in the world.

Eating Out...




Our front porch has become my favorite place to eat out...and I am a little sad that it has been so busy that we haven't done nearly enough of that. I like to experiment and try new recipes and soak in the fresh produce I get in the CSA and farmers market. But this summer has been a dud for me to experiment and try I just have been down and exhausted mentally and physically. But I cherish the moments when life slows down just enough and we can all have a seat and enjoy a really lovely meal...this offering was pancetta, free range eggs, farm tomato, organic lettuce and some wasabi mayo with coffee and a splash of orange juice. I feel truly rich to be sitting there with my table cloth, candles, and flowers from the garden...just watching the world pass us by!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Girl of Summer



Ella looked like summer today in her colors and with her blonde hair, blue eyes, and little hint of a tan...and her sassiness was ever present today as well! So, she posed again as I messed with her. I love that goofy little smile with all the craziness of the teeth new and old. I love this girl's sense of humor. She has the world's wickedest wit, don't forget she is only 5!! I actually think there is only one person who might give her a run for her monely with that and that would be her Daddy!! But even though I try, I have trouble holding back the laughter when Ella looks at the world and gives you her opinion... and oh will she ever give you her opinion...now we try to teach some tact...so even though I was home for not so good reasons I am grateful that I had this time with my sassy little lady to enjoy some giggles and laughter on the front porch. These really are good days!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Who'd a thunk??



Ok so here is the thing...I have been running. The one activity I have always said that I would never ever ever do. No one looks like they are happy running. They look pained and tortured, as do I now. Do I do it because it feels good...most definitely not! Do I do it because I am good at it...most definitely not! Do I do it because I think I am going to run marathons...not in this lifetime! I do it because it pushes me to reach and get out of my comfort zone. It challenges me. It so very much challenges me. But having started to face up to and meet that challenge head on I feel empowered. I feel strong and able and like yes I can! That is a very good feeling to have I must say! This running came as a symptom of a competition at work to lose weight. I had to try to increase my activity more than walking because results were slim... I am making big life changes. I have shifted my eating habits and totally increased my exercise and guess what????!!! It has started to work. Not in a big fast way but in a way I can maintain and continue on with. I have lost 7 pounds in 6 weeks. I am proud of this because I did this the right way and in a sustainable healthy way. I feel strong and like I may be able to do anything...like maybe I can make other changes as well...we shall see!! Portland anyone?

Thursday, June 25, 2009

The Sinclair Family





So once upon a time, there was a man named John and a woman named Isabel. It was 1926. They decided to build a house on a street in a town in Michigan. Well those two people went on to have 8 children who had children who married etc and so forth.
Well in 1996, a couple buys their first house and with this house comes a history about the Sinclairs with a picture of the 8 children on the front lawn. Intrigue and curiosity but forgotten with life as it came and went and changed. Flash ahead with me to 2006 a preschool and a mother and her daughter. Laughs and chit chat had then mother takes daughter to new preschool connection lost. Then 2009...kids yoga class mother and daughter reappear more chat ensues then there is facebook and some social gatherings with mutual friends and then finally the conversation..."You do not live in the big white house do you?" "Why yes I do?" "My father in law grew up in that house." Which brings us to today.
Today we had the honor of hosting the four remaining Sinclair children, a few spouses and a few children, and grandchildren and great grandchildren in our home, well their home really. It was an amazing day and lifted our hearts to hear all the memories and be greeted with hugs and kisses from a wonderful family who were so happy to be "home" again.
They wandered all around looking and peeking and remembering and my favorite brings tears to my eyes quotes was when one of the ladies (names are a blur to me right now) was coming down the stairs and she said "How many times has my hand come down this bannister?" I was really delighted that we could be part of this and see them all.
They said it was a happy house. A good place to grow up. And that there was always a lot of dancing in this house. Which funnily are things that people still say about our home. They always feel content here and there is always dancing!!
And to think several of them were born in what is now my bedroom is pretty darn powerful if you ask me!
This house has always been my gift and treasure. I love it's angles, it's quirks, it's history and the fact it had a story. I have always hoped to honor that story and add only good to it and today I had confirmation that in fact we really truly are. Thank you Sinclair Family for sharing your memories and reunion with us and hopefully there will be many more for us to witness!!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Faces...



There are days when the light hits right, and the ladies are game, that I have them make all their faces...just keep changing it out as I snap the camera, of course some turn out and others blur but oh the giggles we share while they take a turn hamming...I will miss these days!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

My girl...





My girl got her very first haircut today. Yes she is in fact 8 yrs old. But that is the way with really curly hair. You can't even tell it is really long because it boings up! So my lovely lady has asked me for a couple of months to get a haircut. I hemmed, I hawed, I tried to pretend I forgot...but then I realized I had to let go. I had to let her have some say. I had to trust her and her image of what she saw for herself. So she and I wandered over to Clare to see my guru Trisha. I am not sure Bronwyn slept much last night. When I went to check on her she looked like it was Christmas Eve not haircut eve. She was a little excited and worried and concerned. A quote, "You have told me my whole life to not let anyone have scissors around my head and now you tell me to let someone have scissors around my head. It freaks me out." She is very wise my girl! And I am not certain I have ever specifically said "don't let anyone have scissors around your head" but that is what stuck in her 8 yr. old brain. But the results are wonderful and what made it even more wonderful was the smile that came up onto that stunning little face. It came from her very deepest inside and she looked happy, glowy, pleased, and proud. Now that is a haircut!!! Don't you wish everyone you got could evoke all those feelings!! That would be worth the tip! And my little lady even asked Trisha to straighten her crazy curls just so she could see what it would be like for a couple of days to have straight hair! And look at her...she hardly seems the same girl...I think I brought home the wrong kid. This older looking child could not possibly be my first born...sigh...alas it is...in all her beauty inner and outer she is mine and I like many other parents have not yet figured out to hold back time...Congrats Bronwyn on your vision and instinct you were right on the nose!!